goodbye or hi

I've got this thinking. And Im very sobs bout it now. Should I just let it go. Should I should I. . . It feels like it just doesn't belong to me... somehow it feels like also... sometimes i wonder if it's the truth or just the reverse. It's weird. It's dumb. It's confusing. It's saddening. It's blurdy turtle. Damn it. Hahah. I guess. It's time to just say goodbye......???