What do you want?

What am I gona do? This holiday is long. What am I to do. Was thinking of studyin for SAT exam? Or go work? Or sharpen up my skills on certain stuff? Or get a story book and sit down at a corner, drinking green tea latte. What am I to do with myself. What do I really want. I don't know. I have some aims to go. Now is holidays. There's no reason why I shouldn't enjoy. What to enjoy? I don't even know where I want to go. What I want to really do and achieve in my life. This is my cross road. Where to go. North south east west. What do I exactly want? A reason to live. A reason to survive for the better. A reason to change for good. A reason to show that I can. A reason why Im talkin so much here and not doin anything here. XD