a lesson to be learnt

looks like, i can't and am not allowed to do this anymore, because, once i do it, i become thinner and thinner. it saps my energy. saps till i can't have much of it to concentrate in other areas anymore. stressing too much, worryin too much. not the way its supposed to be. the best part of me is gone. the best part is the worst part. i think too much.