im tired. im sad. im having depression. tho its normal and everything's fine. im not any better now. i feel terrible. i feel really really terrible. you can see me laughing everyday, cracking jokes every single time you see my face, deep inside, im numb. im sad. i wonder what im doing now. i wonder whether its worth the while doing watever everything im doing now. it seems that im not happy with everything for now. ppl say you never know till you try. im in the midst. i feel like im dying. i feel like i have nowhere to go. i feel that i do not have any achievement just yet. theres stil hope...theres still hope... theres no hope in me, i gotta find a new one. a new hope. a new life. a new perspective. a new thing. a new me.