issit ok to feel afraid? right now. im feeling very scared. im scared. im afraid. i think i shud listen to eminem now. my heart is pumping so hard. let me tell u a bit of my day today. well, my lecturer covered 4 chapters just in bout 2 hours. crazy aint it. yes, crazy. im already scared. its not easy. I REPEAT. NOT EASY. breathe huay ling. BREATHE. I AM VERY SCARED NOW. I AM AFRAID. Oh goodness, Oh Lord. I cant breathe properly now. I wonder whether its the pressure. My head doesnt feel right now. back to the point of the day. did some experiment in the lab. FAILED. however, its ok. but we did about 7 hours n the half jsut to test and make some salt ourselves. oh gosh. CRAP. IM SCARED. holy. i must be calm nowwww. be calmmm. is this some panic attack. oh goodness. im scared. i cant even calm myself down wit covering the blanket around me. my hands are cold. i wana kill myself now. i cant even hold something properly now. typing is good exercise huh. oh gosh. i nid warmth for my heart. i really do.