its 12:37a.m. now, i feel tired. wat am i to do. im tired. and don't wana sleep. feel as if i hvnt done something. head's tired. my heart is still awake. u know, sometimes, when u're so high on doing something, u forgot who you are. step back and look again. tats wat Pastor Sandra said last Sunday. yeap. its true. look and see. stay humble. see wat u've done. see wat u've said and yes. u know wat i mean.

u know, i have a younger brother, his name is Yong Joon. Recently, out of a sudden, he chose a name, the name is Matthew. I believe, he's born for a purpose a reason. Because, when i was 11, i kept writing letters and put under my mum's pillow. Every single day. Just to have a baby brother. I know its not me who's doing that. I know it happened for a reason. And I don't know why.

Matthew grew up to be a very smart baby brother. He loves maths. :) He loves the family. He helps mummy cook, he helps mummy clean the house, he helps mummy chop the vegetables, he helps mummy to wash the kitchen and just loves to help. He puts things back to places. He finishes every book he reads. He loves business.
At such tender age, he's already planning for the future.

My brother, loves me very much as well. I'm blessed for that. Looking back the days when i'm at home, i realised i hvnt done much for him. I haven't gave him all the happiness and joy i'm supposed to give him as the eldest sister. i feel that he's kinda lonely. writing this, i feel like crying. but, yea. i realised i havent been doing my job as a sister tho we're 13 years apart.