we all have this self-conflict within us.
i have self-conflict as well.
about how we need to express ourselves in order to let others see
and we shall only respond corresponding to how the society looks at us
wisdom
there is a word called 'wisdom'

there're always some tensions pulling you away from doing what you actually want to do
isnt it?
its true
i have and have been and still experiencing it
not that i have so much work to do
but its our daily lives that we'll have to deal with

it has nothing to do with anyone
its just
just ourself.
isnt that true
its just ourself.
people could say, ' maybe its ur work, ur health problem'

oh no tats not it
you cant even give your best when you have this tensions
* i dont like the word tension *

point is

you can't give your best knowing that its the right thing to do
you're afraid of risks
you're afraid of the circumstances

i'm afraid as well

i'm afraid writing this as well.

but on the bright side,
what can man do to you?

its not about falling
its about getting up everytime we fall

-it is not by me writing this-